As time goes by

Time for me, started speeding up my freshman year in college.  Before that, time crept.

I remember sitting on the hillside beside my dorm, Hardin Hall at Milligan college, listening to my best friend's brother, who was a senior, give us our first orientation to campus life.  Joy was not my best friend then...I hadn't even met her!  She became that pretty quickly though, starting that first week!

The day I graduated, it seemed as if that orientation had just happened the day before,  I remember driving away from college thinking...now what?

I knew I had to make my own way now and that my parents would no longer support me financially.  That was pretty scary by itself!  I also knew that my parents would not be here forever to back me up and that was very sad for me.  It had never hit me before like it did then.

Now that that sad day is long gone, I look back and wonder, where did the time go?  So much has happened in the 62 years since that spring day in 1962, that sometimes it doesn't seem real.  It's almost as if I watched a movie of someone else's life.

I thought that surely I could never be as happy as I was in college, but of course I have been...and guess what?  Even happier!

Meeting and marrying Tommy far surpassed those 4 short years in college, and we have had 57 of the happiest of years!

Having my children, John thomas and Jason Amos has made Tommy and me more blessed and happy than we ever imagined in 1966 when we married.

However, once again, I look back and think, as Mother used to say, "Backward Turn Backward, oh time in your flight.  Make me a child again...just for tonight!"  

I would add to that, make my children, children again..just for tonight.  Let me hold them, smell them and rock them just one more time. 

Give Tommy and me the energy we had all those years ago to go from sunup till sundown and still not be tired.

The last question I have been asking myself lately is,  "Why is it that I have just sort of, kind of, started to figure it all out now that my time here on this earth is almost up?"  Sometimes I wish I could go back and do it all over again and maybe this time I wouldn't make so many mistakes.  Maybe I would cherish the moments more.  Maybe I would have put aside silly stuff like sweeping the floor to roll around in that floor with my husband and children.  I don't know.  Maybe not.  

I do know that now that I am at the end, I see a bit more clearly, that the things I thought mattered, didn't.  And the things that I felt didn't matter, or at least could wait until another TIME, did.  

Here's a hokey bumper sticker quote for you.  "Only one life, will soon be past.  Only what's done for Christ will last."

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